Promises to myself

1. Going to be the servant of God by end of this year
2. Not going to fall into any relationship until i graduate from my degree
3. Dont give up so easily in my studies! As nothing is impossible with the faith of God! remember that!

my only way

This is my only to speak out my feelings when I don't feel like telling others. I don't know what I should do when I have to due with my emotions and my studies.. You went back to hometown. Thru this trip, you hope that you can find back yourself, treat yourself better and also find the way back to God's path. Congratz that you found yourself, changed your mind set and also you found God's path. I should be happy for you. But unfortunately, right now, I'm not happy at all.. Maybe you hope to be like this. Keep our distance as far as possible. But, I don't want it like that. Maybe you don't need to have my support anymore. But, I still need your support to go thru all these. I'm not that strong as I thought. I thought I could leave you since I'm the one who is making you a freak. I thought I leave you is the only way for you to be a better person. but I can't stop myself to think about you. You just flow into my mind every moment. Its hard for me. I hate to due with all these shits.. Tons of assignments are waiting for me.. Finals are also trying to tie me up. I'm so stress.. Can someone borrow me your shoulder? I hope you are here beside me right now.. ;(